If you know me, I am a do-er. I absolutely hate sitting still. I hate NOT doing something. I'd much rather get up and be pro-active and get things moving! I've been that way my ENTIRE LIFE. (Yes, I am very much Type-A, which so necessitated me sharing my life with a very Type-B man!) But, alas, we are on an adoption journey, and we are entering the dreaded WAITING period. We lack only our I-171H form (the kids' visa approvals to enter the U.S. after adoption) to be able to submit our paperwork to Ethiopia. So, until we receive that from Immigration (which could be any day, or in a few weeks), we are sitting and waiting. OH, how I dread those two words. Blech.
[Caption for photo below: My totally laidback-knows-how-to-rest-while-both-sitting-and-waiting husband. God love'm.]
Meanwhile, we're also waiting waiting waiting for the orphanage director (at the orphanage where our three Ethiopian children are waiting waiting waiting) to sign an agreement with our agency so we can adopt these beautiful kids!
We're also waiting waiting waiting for the rest of the funds for our adoption to come in.
SO MUCH waiting. And, what do I normally do when I am in a waiting spell? Well, of course...I stay very busy! I don't sit. I don't rest. I don't lounge around. I stay so busy and active that I drive myself into the ground.
Well, this time, God decided I WILL LEARN TO REST EVEN IF HE HAS TO FORCE IT ON ME. Thing is, I haven't quite learned it yet. So, two weeks ago, I entered what is now 14 days of major physical pain. First, the dentist thought it was a tooth problem. Then the endodontist believed it must be TMJ. Then, the CT scan tech diagnosed it as a severe sinus infection. But, voila...It is none of the above. Instead, the oral surgeon has declared that I have a HOLE IN MY BONE in my sinus cavity! Yes, this is just as much fun as it sounds! I will see an ENT next week, who will coordinate with my oral surgeon and decide what to do from there.
BUT, seeing as next weekend (Sept 7th and 8th) is our second GINORMOUS adoption fundraiser yard sale, I will wait until after that weekend to schedule any procedures. In the meantime, I am living on pain meds (not my favorite thing to do) and WAITING.
I am kicking and screaming mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, and haven't quite agreed with God that I must learn to rest in Him. I know, I know, I know, I must. I just haven't quite relinquished full control even though everything for which we wait is SO BEYOND MY CONTROL.
You are now probably waiting for this blog to end, so I will not make you wait much longer. But, while I wait, will you please pray for me to learn how to truly REST in Him, and not in my own activism (though it certainly has its place in this process). Oh, how I cringe.
And, Oh, LORD. Please hasten the day. We are desperate for our children to come home to us!
Oh, and P.S. I really hate having my hands tied down. Please, God?